Personality Stream of ConsciousnessPosted: February 4, 2009
I wrote this for my psychology class. Still, I believe that it transcends the class, and shall post it here. I wrote this as a stream of consciousness, so do not expect anything of an academic standard in the writing. I might edit it some day though…
I am a cautious person. I avoid risk, and due to this, I am somewhat introverted. I can not go through an extended conversation with somebody of my peer group without getting nervous. The risk I feel is that I may humiliate myself in such a way that I am disliked, and our neutrality & equality falls. Unfortunately, this introversion removes the neutrality. When surrounded by those not in my peer group, I hold conversation better. As much as I dislike Humanistic Theory, this explains the personality the best.
I also have a technical personality, enjoying intelligence, and novel information over zoing out. I never really liked television spreading stereotypical ideas in the form of jokes. Nobody else in my family are like this. If people show ignorance in a subject, I try to give what I know on it. In this case, I am helpful, and perhaps my to be technical came about from tying to help people without knowledge.
But then, where did my want to help come from? It preceded computer knowledge, as that came in seventh grade with the advent of my quick, but noisy typing speeds. Hmm…I don’t recall being a helpful person before myadventuregame.com, a site about creating choose-your-own-adventure stories, something I loved since finding the rare story type. I ended up being one of three moderators, and through fake accounts, busted a long term troll attack. Oh boy, that was fun.
I’m not sure which characteristic to mention next. I’ll go with procrastination. Now, I don’t procrastinate at everything. I am not lazy. I wrote this for example! I only procrastinate with forced events (homework & chores) and things that have an extrinsic value. If it is mostly intrinsicly rewarded (charity of manpower or intelligence) then I will do it. It is likely this personality trait makes me helpful. This is humourous to. I am technical because I am helpful because I put off extrnisicly rewarded work for intrinsicly reward work. Maybe I am technical and helpful for the same reason, and I have two reasons for technical knowledge.
As a libertarian, I most value freedom, even if I do not believe in free will. I define freedom as the ability to create and enact decisions without arbritary force being forced on you and not creating arbritary force. Coersion is counter to choice, and I am a choosy person, looking for what fulfills my needs, and follows my beliefs. Combine every personality point I have mentioned, helpful, technical, procrastintor, libertarian, choosy, and cautious, and you have the reason I give free tech support on a chat protocol called IRC. I don’t answer questions I don’t know (cautious, helpful), and so its only for free programs (technical, libertarian) that I use (choosy). I do so instead of homework (procrastination), but usually the support is more valuable than the homework. This essay is an exception.
Valuing freedom and choice comes from rational thought, which schools attempt to develop. A bad social life in elementary school, and having unconditional positive regard from parents led myy goals to sway away from people and more to school grades which leads to rational thought, but only until seventh grade.
Also note that I am frugal.