Personality Stream of Consciousness

I wrote this for my psychology class.  Still, I believe that it transcends the class, and shall post it here.  I wrote this as a stream of consciousness, so do not expect anything of an academic standard in the writing.  I might edit it some day though…

I am a cautious person.  I avoid risk, and due to this, I am somewhat introverted.  I can not go through an extended conversation with somebody of my peer group without getting nervous.  The risk I feel is that I may humiliate  myself in such a way that I am disliked, and our neutrality & equality falls.  Unfortunately, this introversion removes the neutrality.  When surrounded by those not in my peer group, I hold conversation better.  As much as I dislike Humanistic Theory, this explains the personality the best.
I also have a technical personality, enjoying intelligence, and novel information over zoing out.  I never really liked television spreading stereotypical ideas in the form of jokes.  Nobody else in my family are like this.  If people show ignorance in a subject, I try to give what I know on it.  In this case, I am helpful, and perhaps my to be technical came about from tying to help people without knowledge.
But then, where did my want to help come from?  It preceded computer knowledge, as that came in seventh grade with the advent of my quick, but noisy typing speeds.  Hmm…I don’t recall being a helpful person before, a site about creating choose-your-own-adventure stories, something I loved since finding the rare story type.  I ended up being one of three moderators, and through fake accounts, busted a long term troll attack.  Oh boy, that was fun.
I’m not sure which characteristic to mention next.  I’ll go with procrastination.  Now, I don’t procrastinate at everything.  I am not lazy.  I wrote this for example!  I only procrastinate with forced events (homework & chores) and things that have an extrinsic value.  If it is mostly intrinsicly rewarded (charity of manpower or intelligence) then I will do it.  It is likely this personality trait makes me helpful.  This is humourous to.  I am technical because I am helpful because I put off extrnisicly rewarded work for intrinsicly reward work.  Maybe I am technical and helpful for the same reason, and I have two reasons for technical knowledge.
As a libertarian, I most value freedom, even if I do not believe in free will.  I define freedom as the ability to create and enact decisions without arbritary force being forced on you and not creating arbritary force.  Coersion is counter to choice, and I am a choosy person, looking for what fulfills my needs, and follows my beliefs.  Combine every personality point I have mentioned, helpful, technical, procrastintor, libertarian, choosy, and cautious, and you have the reason I give free tech support on a chat protocol called IRC.  I don’t answer questions I don’t know (cautious, helpful), and so its only for free programs (technical, libertarian) that I use (choosy).  I do so instead of homework (procrastination), but usually the support is more valuable than the homework.  This essay is an exception.
Valuing freedom and choice comes from rational thought, which schools attempt to develop.  A bad social life in elementary school, and having unconditional positive regard from parents led myy goals to sway away from people and more to school grades which leads to rational thought, but only until seventh grade.
Also note that I am frugal.


Education Rant

This is my response to 6-year-old barred from school over haircut – Metro –

Private schools are businesses. They can make their own rules. Unfortunately, public schools have the same ‘127 page student handbooks’ with some fascist rules in them. At my school, hats are allowed thankfully, and teachers are starting to become apathetic with cellphones. Still, the code disallows cellphones, and calls headbands gang-related. Oh, and my school has a “No public displays of affection allowed rule”, because you know, it will distract people from learning. Why not put the responsibility of what is distracting in the hands of the teachers? You are not really learning in hallways, so they should not be blocking events in hallways unless they are disruptive to motion, to standing in the middle (not sides) of busy hallways. No, can’t do that! We have to stop those people in the empty hallway from kissing! On a different note, my homework assignment in one class was to write out the Key Terms and then answer 10 questions at the end of the chapter. It is the same assignment, and question 2 asked for the definitions of three of the eight key terms. Even though it was already written above, the teacher said to write them again..that just strikes me as strange, and it is not going to help me learn it any more. If repetition is needed, do not make it for a part of the full material….grr….I like ranting…